Six things I wish I'd never done... (Day 5 of the tumblr challenge)

Day Five of my abandoned tumblr challenge is to write about Six things you wish you’d never done. I'm one of those ppl that likes to see the silver lining in every experience. I've gone through a lot, and I appreciate the lessons in each; because as cliched as it sounds, I learned a lesson. Still and though, there are SOME things I would like to do over

In elementary school, I strongly disliked one of my classmates. And honestly, I can't even remember why. At the time I was so fueled by my dislike for her, that in 4th grade I started the 'We hate E**** O****' club. With yours truly as founder and President, I got 6 other girls together and we had club meetings every Thursday at lunch. It was a pretty advanced operation; we had a treasurer, secretary and someone took minutes. Had we applied those skills towards a charitable organization, who knows where we'd have gone.
I digress, I've always felt guilty about being so angry and hurtful. I remember when E**** found out about the club (our notes were thrown in the garbage and she spotted them), she reported us to the principal. Even then, I justified hating her with all the trouble she had gotten us into. it wasn't until many years later, while reflecting on the type of person i want to be that it dawned on me how terrible of a person I had been. I realized much to late how wrong it was, I wish I could apologize to her from the bottom of my heart.

There are actually quite a few people that i owe an apology to. Something that I regret is being so mean in general. The funny thing is, this is the nicest I've ever been in my life, and I'm still somewhat of a b*tch. I did so many cruel things to people, and there was no excuse for it. I've learned my lessons though, and I strive everyday to be nicer and more friendly to everyone I encounter. My personal problems shouldn't be forced upon the innocent bystanders I come in contact with day to day...

Despite my 'bad attitude', one thing I can say for myself is that i have natural leadership qualities. That, and I just like to be in charge. I've always been involved in conversations about world politics, and the easiest transition into making political allies and improving my networking skills would have been a seat on the school board. Not participating in student government at my high school is a huge regret. It was a chance to make important decisions for my classmates and establish myself in an official capacity. 

Taking so long to return to writing. There was a point in time where me without pen and paper was like a fish out of water. As I got older, and things in my life started changing, I lost track of it. It has taking some time for me to find my 'voice' again, although I think its coming along nicely. I just wish I had stuck with the poems and short stories. I'd have a nice little collection by now, and the confidence to go to slam poetry gigs.

Involving myself with the crew I hung out with in 10th grade. I don't speak to a SINGLE PERSON I called a 'friend' my sophmore year of high school. Sometimes I feel like I wasted an entire year, on relationships that went absolutely nowhere. There was much more harm than good done that year; s. Beyond learning what type of people to avoid from now on, there was nothing positive about having u in my life

Whenever I imagined my college years, I always pictured myself reppin' the letters. I truly regret not becoming involved in 'Greek life'. I know which sorority I wanted to join, and I've already seen sisters of that sorority in professional settings. Besides the amazing networking opportunities, the sisterhood and the community service aspects, pledging itself is an experience I'll probably never have.